1. |
Cat Party
05:29
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maybe it was the cycle or the incarnation
Your soul floats towards a brighter day, but there's none here anymore.
I will try to take your pain away
Any time I hear you, I think that I'm dreaming.
Every time I see you, I know that I'm dreaming
so this is where the hat hangs for tonight at least
I know that you're all alone, I know that you have no home.
Spirits trapped inside a mortal body screaming out "rescue me".
Preach the word of love and affection, the true epitome of beauty.
cardinal directions, they pull relentless
solitude for two
solitude for two
I know that you are blind. My dear, I hope you see me.
but upon presentation
reasons weren’t laid on the table
deemed wholly unnecessary
still struggling to peel back
Oh I hope you see me because lately I can't even look at myself.
meaning failed the stationary
why wouldn’t it now?
let’s drop candy in this bitter drink
a foundation of our vehicle
Every time I see you walking towards me, I think that this is all a dream, and I have no reason to
believe that you exist to anyone but me.
Where have all my lives gone, have I lived them all?
Where have my nine lives gone? Have I lived them all?
first and final chapters left unwritten
call it procrastination
this is just a still photograph
I know you're cold, and I know that you need a hand to hold, but dear I hope that you know that I am still so close, but I can't wrap my head around you.
this is just a still photograph
this is just a still
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2. |
3 Part Burial Procedure
01:04
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pull my heart out of my chest
dump my body in a shallow, unmarked grave and
Cut
bury my heart in the garden
My
bury my heart in the garden
Heart
bury my heart in the garden
Out
bury my heart
in the garden
A departed soul needs no love or a hand to
Hold
bury my heart in the garden
My
bury my heart in the garden
Head
bury my heart in the garden
Up
bury my heart
Please
in the garden
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3. |
Welcome to Rapture
09:46
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there’s a certain quality in bloodshot eyes
I seem to have forgotten just who I am
are the hiding something, a map in disguise?
follow these veins the guide like dotted lines
you are the iris, and I, the pupil inside
I will spend the rest of my life searching through the skies for a reason to keep on moving,
Oh but I'm stuck in waves, begging to see your face,
And I'm taking pills, hoping I might just dream of you.
god exists only ‘cause we believe
but pascal’s wager had no effect on me
how is it easy to believe in something that we can’t even see?
occam’s razor cut skin to the bone
bleeds out complexity
leaves only simplicity
it makes more sense can’t you see
god bless this architect
he built these cities underneath the sea
he envisioned worlds that you and me couldn’t even see
so give me adam and give me eve
give me everything thing
I’m gonna drown this whole town now
I’m gonna burn it to the ground
it’s filled with splicers and fiends
gonna baptize it, make it clean
I’ll build your trust and love just to break it back down
your earth and sea, it’s all apart of me
your dirt brought trees, they are growing up inside me
I’ll keep you safe from the horrors in the way
of no gods, no kings, only human beings
if I’m their savior then you’re their god
‘cause you taught me everything I know
you made me who I am today
this fucked up monster
I’ll teach them selfishness
I’ll teach them humility
I’ll teach them every little thing that you taught me
I’ll kill all their sisters and their daddies too
I’ll follow you along the shore
I couldn’t send somebody to find you ‘cause there’s nowhere left to stand
I'm floating to the sea, don't send somebody to find me because I'm already so far gone, it's sad.
I saw you floating below me
I was already a thousand leagues above you
but you never stop falling
I see you floating above me but I'm already a thousand leagues under you, and I can't stop drowning.
I gave you this compass six months ago
marked the map and showed you where to go
but you can’t trust the stars anymore
Lost your compass six months ago, burned the map and didn't know where to go, oh I can't trust the stars.
I’ll follow you along the shore
a lighthouse will guide me to your door
I hope that we don’t die alone
Oh how I long for your shore, rocky beaches and a place that I call home, oh god, I'm so fucking alone
my whole life I had you to protect me, you failed
I'm sorry I failed my whole life's meaning, forgive me.
but you came back and searched the seas to find me, my god
But she locked me up and hid my from our vision, a savior.
our two lives are intertwined together, you failed me
I never thought that we could change the world
can we still change ourselves?
can
we
still
save
ourselves
Because my whole life, all I've ever wanted was to change
can
we
still
save
ourselves
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4. |
Blue House
02:41
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Pushed through that blue door into self-deprecation and dreams accomplished.
Memories there a vision of guns to my head.
Tired eyes only see black and white.
I gave into the wrong set of surroundings.
I will never feel loved again, just pros and cons of medications.
They have shut down all comforts.
I will never wake up in a hospital bed again, my next attempt gets full effort.
My illness took everything.
It was due time my friends gave up on me.
Flailing and falling asleep quickly, I never asked anyone to save me.
I couldn't peel her breath from the ceiling,
I couldn't tear her words from those walls.
I had to let go
I had to move on
I had to leave
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5. |
Hand me my lime, Ricky.
03:56
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Popsicle Jesus
cold between my lips
Feed your god
being becoming communion
you are the great I am
Feed your god
Suck off salvation
in my mouth, baby
Feed your god
service salary preservation
let’s make a habit out of this
Feed your god
God in gods traffic school
pull me over, put me in handcuffs
Feed your god
Baptism by president’s erection
I’m wet with democracy
Feed your god
make it rain, baby
To be to not to be seemly
saving sexy sinning sisters
So homey orange holey
the most extreme
To be complete
me me me me me me me
Capital others
crash together
automize choking
fix me now
Mechanize mothers
ever loving
patriarchs joking
ha ha ha ha ha
Capital others
cold between my lips
atomize choking
you are the great I am
in my mouth, baby
To be to not to be seemly
let’s make a habit out of this
So hol(e)y orange homie
pull me over, put me in handcuffs
To be complete
I’m wet with democracy
make it rain, baby
saving sexy sinning sisters
the most extreme
me me me me me me me
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6. |
(de)fused
09:19
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throwing letters away
throwing letters away
I gave half my life to a light that I choose to dangle in front of my face.
hey there my pretty little train conductor
let’s get all lickedy split
I'll take all the blame.
throwing letters away
throwing letters away
We haven't connected in so long, but I hope that when the time comes we both will have such
soft hearts and such encouraging characters.
we’re sneaking around downstairs
but she’s in our bedroom with your man
all my life, my whole life
all my life, my whole life
I’ve been defused from the inbox out
I've given up on myself
fused into me, lost empathy
that drink means you’d still be talking
discovered the inbox, find out all you want
strung along by this machinery
Drank with apathy, discovered misery
I've given up on everything else
I’m defused from the inbox out
in the wrong place with the wrong person, person
I was born a boy with phallic hardware
Ever evolving digital monsters
in your dead boyfriend’s arms you showed me
but I don't know if I could take that to my grave
that’s why I had to be so still, lying next to you while you slept
What do I have to look up to? The older models will tear me up, like they've torn you up.
in your dead boyfriend’s arms you showed me
that’s why I had to be so still, lying next to you while you slept
I’m so confused
I’m so defused
I’m so confused
I’m so confused
I’m so defused
I’m so confused
your lumberjack can’t see through this blanket
but then again, neither can I
neither can I
neither can I
I built this certain character
we don’t have to tell your god about this
out of my multiple
we don’t have to tell your god about this
personalities
we don’t have to tell your god about this
that those doctors assigned me
we don’t have to tell your god about this
that my mother gave to me
we don’t have to tell your god about this
Look away
we don’t have to tell your god about this
I'm not here for your enjoyment.
I just want to bring myself down.
I'm not here for your enjoyment.
I have torn out my lying eyes
do you want some? don’t worry, it’s real
rejected my reflection
happy birthday to him? happy birthday to me
happy birthday to him? happy birthday to me
That's not mine, that's not me
happy birthday to him? happy birthday to him? happy birthday to him?
We have taken so many pills
extending herself to you
we have lost sight of ourselves
I’m sure someone is enjoying the evidence
I don't know who knows me
I was born broken and I fucking hate that it is all you will ever see in me.
Ever evolving digital monsters
I don’t pay to play, and I don’t pay to play
I don’t pay to play, and I don’t pay to play
cut you off at the lungs if you do the same for me
I was born broken and I fucking hate that it is all I will ever be.
cut you off at the lungs if you do the same for me
Distanced.
Damaged.
So far away.
your mirage is a chemical island
last hope for a desperate man
I see you glimmer off in the distance
I’ll probably never see you again
I’m sinking quickly
into the sand
no stable or cross to stand
goodbye my oldest friend
I think it’s safe to say
I’m losing faith in the human race
yet I still say honestly
I love my life and today
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7. |
Fill a Hearse
01:58
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An empty casket, an unread book. Flip it open, dive into
death cannot possibly come quickly enough
a different world better than your shitty life.
death cannot possibly come quickly enough
Do you want to die like I want to die?
death cannot possibly come quickly enough
Better than your shitty life; there's a comfort in the longest nights for
death cannot possibly come quickly enough
diseased minds with the sharpest knives and a handful of pills.
so, fill a hearse
so, fill a hearse
Tear down the walls that you built to funnel your emotions and let them take over everything.
so, fill a hearse
so, fill a hearse
Now mangle your body and bleed.
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8. |
Dragon Bones
02:58
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Comfort isn't always quite as reinforced as you might think, and that's what fucks me up the most,
knowing that at any second I might sink.
I wanna play with matches, I wanna burn my house down.
I am buttoned right to left
I wanna run with scissors, I wanna cut this heart out.
I have button left to right
I wanna run with scissors, I wanna burn my house down.
I prefer to tear clothes off
I prefer to tear skin off
I wanna play with matches, I wanna cut this heart out.
I prefer to tear clothes off
I prefer to tear skin off
If I was to start running is there anybody who would follow me?
I am unpleasantly comfortable
And if I drop out of life just to overdrink and overthink is there anybody? Is there anybody?
I am pleasantly uncomfortable
I've never truly felt comfort before, but I've never quite felt this uncomfortable.
What is this body for?
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