throwing letters away
throwing letters away

I gave half my life to a light that I choose to dangle in front of my face.
hey there my pretty little train conductor
let’s get all lickedy split
I'll take all the blame.

throwing letters away
throwing letters away

We haven't connected in so long, but I hope that when the time comes we both will have such
soft hearts and such encouraging characters.
we’re sneaking around downstairs
but she’s in our bedroom with your man

all my life, my whole life
all my life, my whole life
I’ve been defused from the inbox out

I've given up on myself
fused into me, lost empathy
that drink means you’d still be talking
discovered the inbox, find out all you want
strung along by this machinery
Drank with apathy, discovered misery
I've given up on everything else
I’m defused from the inbox out
in the wrong place with the wrong person, person

I was born a boy with phallic hardware
Ever evolving digital monsters
in your dead boyfriend’s arms you showed me
but I don't know if I could take that to my grave
that’s why I had to be so still, lying next to you while you slept
What do I have to look up to? The older models will tear me up, like they've torn you up.
in your dead boyfriend’s arms you showed me
that’s why I had to be so still, lying next to you while you slept

I’m so confused
I’m so defused
I’m so confused
I’m so confused
I’m so defused
I’m so confused

your lumberjack can’t see through this blanket
but then again, neither can I
neither can I
neither can I
I built this certain character
we don’t have to tell your god about this
out of my multiple
we don’t have to tell your god about this
personalities
we don’t have to tell your god about this
that those doctors assigned me
we don’t have to tell your god about this
that my mother gave to me
we don’t have to tell your god about this
Look away
we don’t have to tell your god about this

I'm not here for your enjoyment.
I just want to bring myself down.
I'm not here for your enjoyment.

I have torn out my lying eyes
do you want some? don’t worry, it’s real
rejected my reflection
happy birthday to him? happy birthday to me
happy birthday to him? happy birthday to me
That's not mine, that's not me
happy birthday to him? happy birthday to him? happy birthday to him?

We have taken so many pills
extending herself to you
we have lost sight of ourselves
I’m sure someone is enjoying the evidence
I don't know who knows me

I was born broken and I fucking hate that it is all you will ever see in me.
Ever evolving digital monsters
I don’t pay to play, and I don’t pay to play
I don’t pay to play, and I don’t pay to play
cut you off at the lungs if you do the same for me

I was born broken and I fucking hate that it is all I will ever be.
cut you off at the lungs if you do the same for me
Distanced.
Damaged.
So far away.

your mirage is a chemical island
last hope for a desperate man
I see you glimmer off in the distance
I’ll probably never see you again

I’m sinking quickly
into the sand
no stable or cross to stand
goodbye my oldest friend

I think it’s safe to say
I’m losing faith in the human race
yet I still say honestly
I love my life and today